it's my turn....

well.... insolence is one of the virtues which most of us who contribute to this log proudly possess. and it is that which makes me now not to write something new, but to copy. however, i maintain my integrity and dont get down to copying from sumone else; i do it from my own self...... neways, here's what i have (or rather had) to say-

Thursday, April 20

Faraway

well, a lots changed since my last post...........got my exams over(hoooof) , got finals coming (ah,not again! ) , saw a really nice movie by the name of 'Crash' (though it was after a horrific 40 min experience with 'Teesri Aankh' ) , and there's been an i-think-definite progress in my L-life(this one i'd been hoping for sooo long).......
The end of sem is approaching,and preps are being made as to who will be going where next year,how will be the holidays,and so on and so forth.There's also a momentary lapse of urgency in the people as the next exams are about ten days away and most dont prepare that early,and surely not just after a series of exams.Anyways, all seems for the good,and hope it remains as it is and we all could just get on with our lives as we have always done, letting it take a meandering path, and being dragged along by it.So, all said and done, life seems just another day,and I should now stop here,sign out and leave, without giving it another damn thought.......
But wait....i am still not feeling over, i still want something.i think i 'm not done yet.i think i have some more to say, something that is there,something thats in there waiting to be told, that needs to be told,and maybe if it comes out, once i am over with it,i'll be a little calmer...........
everything's just fine,is it ? i should just try to move on.but just for a second i stop and what do i find myself in.......a wish to study real hard to make top grades, but the lack of motivation to make the wish come true; an inner longing to do something worthwhile,but not the knowledge of the goal; a desire to learn, but the absence of a motive; a moment to look back, but the blurring of the vision; a dream to share, but the absence of a friend; a place to sleep, but nothing to rest.....
and thats when i feel lost.....empty.

- Purple